Grandiloquent
it all starts from heart.
Restrain.
She’s sulking/mad right now over a small matter. Well, as she said to me, small matter is sometimes big in here eyes. What shall I do? All I can do is restraining myself from bursting up. Yeap, my heart feels so heavy and wanna burst out; but I won’t let it. I gotta be patient. Gotta be calm. Wait– I wanna cry. Bye. <3
Hi, I’m a smoker. I disgust you.
Yeah, I am STILL a smoker. I don’t know why am I so unhappy right now. Maybe because two offensive things, same topic, I accidentally took in a day have made me to be this way. Of course it is about being a smoker. It’s not easy to stop. I don’t have strong guts to do so. I want to, but I can’t. All I can say is; after what has happened to me today, my heart has broken to pieces and hammered till what’s left is nothing. I don’t feel like tweeting my ideas out. ‘Till when? ‘Till I get to feel better. I feel useless right now. Useless for everyone. Yes, not excluding YOU. There’s something in my heart. I just can’t explain it here neither clarify it. Wait…………… “Your boyfriend is a smoker while your ex isn’t. And you don’t like a smoker.” ——- I guess I’ve found out why I’m unhappy. ): I can’t get out from negativity today.
In Her Tomb By The Sounding Sea
So I’m thinking we should maybe just run away from here.
With no plan of coming back.
We can stay away forever, our anguished love will be all we have.
And I will save your life.
It’s happening again, It’s happening again.
I won’t watch you die.
It’s happening again, It’s happening again.
I can see it’s not the first time you have come and taken her from me.
Rest assured it’s not the last time, I’m going to set you free.
You took her once, shame on you.
You took her twice, shame on me.
Whisper softly and tell me that you love me.
I’m losing you, I don’t know what to do.
Please forgive me and know that I am sorry.
I’m losing you, I don’t know what to do.
Trapped inside a memory.
I’m falling apart.
Do you realize it’s over?
There’s no chance of leaving here alive.
You don’t realize what you’re saying, without me you can’t survive.
Whisper softly and tell me that you love me.
I’m losing you, I don’t know what to do.
Please forgive me and know that I am sorry.
I’m losing you, I don’t know what to do.
Trapped inside a memory, I’ve lost it all.
I’m falling apart, you’ve ripped out my heart.
I’m falling apart, I don’t know where to start.
I don’t want to go but I can’t let it show.
If I have to go I’ll be damned if I’m alone.
I’ll be with her again, together til the end.
It’s happening again, It’s happening again.
This song has been stuck in my head for hours and hours, hahaha.
Anyway, I just got back from home, from Amalhs’ house. We spent a great time together! (: This is how it all started;
*phone ringing…
Amalhs : darling! mau ke Soon Lee, bali coke?
Me ; …. –.
After blabla-ing, we decided to meet and we went to Soon Lee! It was fun and– not enough. ): I want more times like that. We merely bought Coke and Pringles! Err… how did we go to Soon Lee? Let’s just say we were using a bus number 11. ;p Right Mon Amour? hehehe.
By the way, I’m thinking of setting my blog to private. So that… I can feel free to blog about WHATEVER I want! ahaks! –.
I’ve got to go now, ILOVEYOU AMALHS! <3
ilysm.
Currently, I’m listening to Matchbox Romance – Tiger Lily. It suits my mood. I wonder; is she mad at me? Cause it seems like she is, by the way she messaged me. I wonder where did I do wrong? She knows I can’t go to sleep like this. She knows it… but why? ): You know I can’t fall asleep this way. “I don’t wanna make things any worse.” – yep, it is downright. I don’t wanna make things to go any worse than this. I miss you so much, love. )’: I really miss you… Greaaaat, I’m shedding tears in the night again, haa.
I just wanna hear your voice right now. I wanna know how you’re doing. I wanna convince myself that you’re not mad at me. )’: Please, do message me, if you can, do message me and tell me how well you are in the morning. I’ve missed you too much here. Just know, you said something about my behavior. You know I’m sensitive when it comes to that. Talking about my behavior reminds me of how I hurt your feeling before. I don’t want that to happen ever again! ): I’d rather change myself for you. I’m ready to change myself.
Please, hopefully, you can message me.. ):
“You know you’re the one
You know I was wrong
You know that I’d do anything
I’m still in love, I’m still in love with you.”
- The Latency
hello goodbye.
I wanted to tell you how I felt that time, which was about my skin. I was expecting you to say something about my tweet. But then, you acted that way, I don’t have a chance to complain to you. You said you feel unloved. I feel my feelings are left behind– or maybe they are, for now. Until your period’s gone.
awesome, but in the end..
– i feel so bad and so sad.. i’m missing you so much. i really wanna cry my eyes out right now, but tears can’t seem to be let out. i miss you so much sayang..
i read danny’s twitter about he wants to bring hanisah to our prom and i feel— down. i’m sorry love.. i didn’t mean to bring this up. i don’t think i can stand seeing my friends with their beloved ones. but there’ll be always paths for me to run, right? hahaa. :’) i’m still wishing i can bring you out for the prom…
anyway, i wanna thank everyone, esp. MY BELOVED PERSON for your LOVELY post! (: i know, thats the least you could do and i appreciate it very much. and to my brothers (actually my close friends, but i see them as my own siblings) thank you so much for coming and i had a great time with you guys.
happy birthday to me— and i wanna cry right now, tata.
As a man..
i don’t know what are you mad at.. about my inbox? about giving my friend my number who has lost it? about a friend who i don’t care at all? your tweets look really great. don’t have someone to talk to? how many times have you said that? more than a couple of times.. i’m going to keep things inside me right now. if i let this out, we’d just have another ugly fight. what’s the use of that? “arguing means still caring” - a nice quote. but stop arguing doesn’t mean i’ve stopped caring. i still can smile, eventhough it’s fake. i’m being patient right now. PMS.. yeah, i might not know how does it feel. but i know, every anger can be restrained.
“and i’ll give my phone number to the next guy who asks for it. jk.” – this sounds really.. good. as if, you did that on purpose then you say your apology to me. i wonder… when will you say something after thinking about it– twice. if you have any better explanation in order to win yourself, i’m ready to be a loser. you always have something better to drown my explanation..
i’m going off now. hope you’re– fine.
LOVELY.
12.11am, Friday.
hello blog!
Currently, I’m watching MY LOVE sleeping. gaah, so sweet and undeniably beautiful. 
I wanted to bring her outside.. yknow, just wanna chit chat with her. But naah, probably later; an hour later. I miss telling her stories, haa. And hey, my lower lip is pink! I like when it is pink and a little redish. Like, it shows as if I am a blood-sucker, RAWR! haha wtf! –. HEY LOVE, I haven’t been in climax yet! 
BABY, oh my, it took about.. 20 mins? 25? just to convince you to go back sleep! :p My eyes watery and you didn’t know it, hahaa. I feel happy.. I’m happy to have you. Remember what I just whispered to you? “No matter what, I’ll always love you.” I mean it so much, haa. :’) BRR, pretty cold here, haha.
Love, you’re so beautiful. I feel like, I am watching you for the first time and falling in love with you. The way you stare at me is so addictive. The way you smell is so mind-pleasuring, so pleasuring that I can’t even think of anything but YOU. Love me, love me forever.. <3
P.S. It is one BEST night.
P.S.S. Thanks for the UNDISCOVERED-YET present love! (L)
What I’ve done;
I woke up miserably, not because of love, but because of illness. Every type of surrounding made me feel enervated and wanna lay in bed for a whole week. Well, I am sick. But I’m feeling better now after taking Actifed. Seriously, it was one cool drug/medicine. After 30 mins taking it, my body felt opposing the power of gravity; felt like I could fly. When I walked up the stairs, I was like… mahn, I don’t know how to explain it hahaha.
So, I had one cool jamm session with my brothers (GOP, I don’t like calling them my friends) and we were practicing Bad Romance by Lady GaGa. In regard to it, I also wanna say thank you to Krol! He sang that song at the first place and guess what? We practiced it right away, and have decided to play it during Vanity Night. I had fun with them and I sweated a lot. STINKAAAAY! hahaha.
Then, I went back home, surfing, had some rest. Went to store for a while, mum wanted to buy Indo Mee ala Jawa. A very DELICIOUS Indo Mee! <3
Chatting session with @amalmnt… it was fine, not depressing as I thought it'd be. Her phone– sigh. I don't want to be not in contact with her. She's all I need all my life. And by here, I wanna confess something; I don't really into calling her my Best-Friend. Don't misunderstand me, I haven't finished yet. Well, I consider to call her my LOVER. Whenever I call her BF, I impulsively imagine that someday we'll separate and then, we'll be just friends forever. No marriage, no anything, just– friends, SIGH. I am so afraid. ): Reason that I prefer to call her LOVER; it consists of EVERYTHING. Friends, bestfriend and even family. It's… everything. ://
I love you, and I don't wanna lose you. I really do. <33
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